It's been a month into the new year. Which means fours months of job hunting. And nothing. Nada. Not even an interview. Just rejection after rejection. Or worse, no response at all. Every morning I wake up and the first thing I do is check my phone for messages and emails. And every morning before I even get out of bed a chunk of my self worth, whatever is left of it, is further chipped away. While I brush my teeth I wonder to myself, am I really that useless? I have to be, or I'd have had atleast one positive response from the several hundred applications I've sent out over the last four months. More than a quarter year spent applying and not even an k terview to show for it. Wow, I must really be quite worthless.
Didn't I do everything one is supposed to? I have a decent resume, a cover letter I've put all of my motivatios, hopes and abilities into, compiled a bunch of recommendation letters and all my certificates. And still nothing.
I guess I just need to accept the fact that people don't get more worthless than me. Worthless, useless, pathetic me.
Well, I won't stop applying. I won't stop searching. I have however stopped hoping. I've stopped dreaming. I may have a noisy head but no more dreams.
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