A fine fall day sometime in the near future. I bring my veena along with me to the park where some of my friends are hanging out. They coax me into playing for them and eventually I do. People around notice the strange instrument. After a while pf playing it's time to go back to the office. So I start to put away my instrument. As I do a guy walks up to me. He looks rather a bit like the guy from the movie "center of my world". He asks me about my instrument and tells me how much he likes it and sounds wonderful and that sort of thing. We get chatting and he introduces himself as Ben. I'm take aback slightly but introduce myself and continue chatting as my friends leave. He tells me he's new to Bonn and that he's a student. I tell him I'm a student too. Apparently he's a student of anatomy. He seems to like that I'm a paleontologist. After a while chatting away I had to leave. He asks for my number. I give it to him.
Fast forward a few months. After dating a few months, Ben and I are together.
One evening I'm late coming home from work so I tell him to ring the doorbell since I know Mr. Eau will be in as he's still staying with me. I go shopping for some groceries. I enter the flat and drop my bags in the kitchen and head to my room. I open the door. There on my bed in my room, Ben and Mr. Eau are locked in a passionate kiss. Making out like hungry teenagers.
My heart stops. They notice me and immediately break the kiss. Ben stands up. I back away. I notice their red lips. I shut the door and run out of the flat. I can hear my name being called from behind me. Whether it's Ben or Mr. Eau I don't know nor do I care. I hasten down the stairs and exit the building. I rush towards the bus stop in the square. I hear someone calling my name. I rush into the first bus that arrives at the stop. As the doors close I see both Ben and Mr. Eau. Too late. The bus leaves and I take a seat and put on my earphones. I blast the rite of spring in full volume, hoping that the angry music will drown out some of my mind, but to no avail.
I quickly send a text to Mr. Eau's friend and mine, telling him to inform Mr. Eau that I want him out of my house. That I want all his stuff and him out by morning. I put my phone in airplane mode and sit back as the bus goes to god know where. Turns out the bus was headed to Duisdorf. I get off near my old place and take a walk around the old neighbourhood. Eventually my phone battery dies so I decide to head to the office. I stay the night. In silence.
In the morning I hesitantly turn on my phone to find a barrage of messages and missed calls. I ignore all of it. Mr. Eau's and my friend informs me that Mr. Eau is gone. So tepidly I head home.
I crawl into bed and sleep like the dead.
I wake up to the ringing of the bell. I check who it is. It's Mr. Eau. I ignore the ringing. Unfortunately someone in the building lets him in and I forgot he has the keys to the apartment door. He comes in and says we need to talk. I tell him to get out. He says no. I scream for him to get out. He refuses. He says we need to talk. He carries on, talking about how sorry he is and it was a stupid mistake. I hear nothing. I head to the kitchen and pick up my big knife and pointing it at him I scream at him to get the hello out. He tells me to put the knife down. I scream, I yell. Suddenly I feel a sharp pain. Mr. Eau's face turns pale. I look down. I've stabbed myself. Mr. Eau comes to me, I put my hand out and scream at him to stay away and pull the bloody knife out and point it at him.
I faint.
Next thing I know I'm waking up in a hospital bed with Ben asleep holding my hand and Mr. Eau sitting in a chair. I scream. I scream. Nurses run in. I scream. I yell at them to get out. The nurses ask them to leave. They say they're sorry but I don't care. I scream.
Later a doctor comes by and tells me the wound is ok and that i can leave in a day or so. But they did a blood test and the results prompted an MRI. I ask him what they found. He says I have lymphoma. Suddenly everything clicks into place.
He tells me an oncologist will meet with me later to discuss treatment. I refuse. I'm later discharged.
Several weeks go by. I'm constantly pestered by Ben and Mr. Eau to talk but ignore them entirely. I go to my advisor and inform her I'm done with the thesis and I'd like to graduate as soon as possible. She complies, under the circumstances. I submit my thesis and leave the office.
While I wait for my defence date I stay in complete seclusion. I then learn the Ben and Mr. Eau are now together. I care not.
The day after my defence, I visit an oncologist who tells me in my current condition I have around ten months. So I decide to throw a dinner party. I make it a lavish affair. I invite everyone, including Ben and Mr. Eau. Everyone shows up and helps. Ben and Mr. Eau arrive and I hug them both as if nothing had happened. I treat them like any other couple friends of mine.
As we have dinner I raise a glass to Ben and Mr. Eau and announce that I have cancer and that I only have a few months.
Fast forward a few months. After dating a few months, Ben and I are together.
One evening I'm late coming home from work so I tell him to ring the doorbell since I know Mr. Eau will be in as he's still staying with me. I go shopping for some groceries. I enter the flat and drop my bags in the kitchen and head to my room. I open the door. There on my bed in my room, Ben and Mr. Eau are locked in a passionate kiss. Making out like hungry teenagers.
My heart stops. They notice me and immediately break the kiss. Ben stands up. I back away. I notice their red lips. I shut the door and run out of the flat. I can hear my name being called from behind me. Whether it's Ben or Mr. Eau I don't know nor do I care. I hasten down the stairs and exit the building. I rush towards the bus stop in the square. I hear someone calling my name. I rush into the first bus that arrives at the stop. As the doors close I see both Ben and Mr. Eau. Too late. The bus leaves and I take a seat and put on my earphones. I blast the rite of spring in full volume, hoping that the angry music will drown out some of my mind, but to no avail.
I quickly send a text to Mr. Eau's friend and mine, telling him to inform Mr. Eau that I want him out of my house. That I want all his stuff and him out by morning. I put my phone in airplane mode and sit back as the bus goes to god know where. Turns out the bus was headed to Duisdorf. I get off near my old place and take a walk around the old neighbourhood. Eventually my phone battery dies so I decide to head to the office. I stay the night. In silence.
In the morning I hesitantly turn on my phone to find a barrage of messages and missed calls. I ignore all of it. Mr. Eau's and my friend informs me that Mr. Eau is gone. So tepidly I head home.
I crawl into bed and sleep like the dead.
I wake up to the ringing of the bell. I check who it is. It's Mr. Eau. I ignore the ringing. Unfortunately someone in the building lets him in and I forgot he has the keys to the apartment door. He comes in and says we need to talk. I tell him to get out. He says no. I scream for him to get out. He refuses. He says we need to talk. He carries on, talking about how sorry he is and it was a stupid mistake. I hear nothing. I head to the kitchen and pick up my big knife and pointing it at him I scream at him to get the hello out. He tells me to put the knife down. I scream, I yell. Suddenly I feel a sharp pain. Mr. Eau's face turns pale. I look down. I've stabbed myself. Mr. Eau comes to me, I put my hand out and scream at him to stay away and pull the bloody knife out and point it at him.
I faint.
Next thing I know I'm waking up in a hospital bed with Ben asleep holding my hand and Mr. Eau sitting in a chair. I scream. I scream. Nurses run in. I scream. I yell at them to get out. The nurses ask them to leave. They say they're sorry but I don't care. I scream.
Later a doctor comes by and tells me the wound is ok and that i can leave in a day or so. But they did a blood test and the results prompted an MRI. I ask him what they found. He says I have lymphoma. Suddenly everything clicks into place.
He tells me an oncologist will meet with me later to discuss treatment. I refuse. I'm later discharged.
Several weeks go by. I'm constantly pestered by Ben and Mr. Eau to talk but ignore them entirely. I go to my advisor and inform her I'm done with the thesis and I'd like to graduate as soon as possible. She complies, under the circumstances. I submit my thesis and leave the office.
While I wait for my defence date I stay in complete seclusion. I then learn the Ben and Mr. Eau are now together. I care not.
The day after my defence, I visit an oncologist who tells me in my current condition I have around ten months. So I decide to throw a dinner party. I make it a lavish affair. I invite everyone, including Ben and Mr. Eau. Everyone shows up and helps. Ben and Mr. Eau arrive and I hug them both as if nothing had happened. I treat them like any other couple friends of mine.
As we have dinner I raise a glass to Ben and Mr. Eau and announce that I have cancer and that I only have a few months.
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